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Monday, April 28, 2003

Before I fall in love

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been through it before
Am I'm just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be

Chorus:
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love

Verse 2:
And I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be

Some old song.. struck me while i was listening to it.. heh
Oh yah.. have i told u ppl i used to like Coco Lee? no? hahaha.. She rocks man!! SupEr DuPEr pretty and talented kae!! BUT BUT BUTTTTTTT!!!!
Not as
HOTas Kristin Kruek in Smallville.. She is a Jaw-Dropper, heart-stopper... haha.. really! =PPP Don't you ppl agreeeeee???????

wrote the board at 4/28/2003 10:20:00 PM |

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i'm so lost.. so lost... soo many things on my mind.. i don't even know which one to start... soo many things, so little time.. i wanna do everything simultaneously, but i can't...
Emotionally sore, Physically weak, Socially inert, Intellectually retarded.
I spent another 3-4 hrs walking around the house doing nothing.. coz i can't get my mind to do anything...
wakeeee meeee up!!!!!!!!! wakee meeeeee upp insideeeee!! Call my name and saveee me from the darkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...

lalala�

wrote the board at 4/28/2003 10:08:00 PM |

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Thursday, April 24, 2003

Bad boys, bad boys
Watcha gonna do whatcha gonna do
When they come for you (repeat)

hahaha.. View the Bad Boys II trailer!

wrote the board at 4/24/2003 01:36:00 AM |

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Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Visit Catholic Ringtones. It has alot of nice nice ringtones with very very accurate notes! heh!

wrote the board at 4/22/2003 05:20:00 PM |

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ahhhhhhhh.. just had PE today!
Sheesh!! I did my NAPFA running practice today.. had stupid stitch on the 4-5th round. Ahhhh!!
sucks! Hahaha.. i feel weak! And u know what?? I need to train on my Pull ups! i can't do more than 3! ahhhhhhh!!!!!
hahaha... W-E-A-K... hahaa.
Oh yah, got back all my BT1 results today.. was quite shitty.. =((((((((((

lalala� I'm FLAKING!!!! hahaha!! *flakes flakes*
Flakes flakes, corn flakes, takopachi flakes, human flakes... lalala�

winnie, signing off.

wrote the board at 4/22/2003 05:07:00 PM |

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Sunday, April 20, 2003

lalala�
hahaa.. just took a shower and just applied Banana Boat's Aloe Vera! haha.. i'm severely burnt =((
Anyway, today's race was disappointing.. Got like 13/15.. and the last race i raced.. i had 6/18
what a drop of ranking man!
felt like a loser.. but to think of it.. i didn't touch the sea for 4-5 weeks
the sea at east coast is very very different from Sembawang's sea.. very very choppy.. never sailed in this condition b4.. used to sail in calm waters at safyc.. ahhaha..
soo yah.. Also, my friend didn't do very well.. he got last i fink.. and he told me he doesn't want to sail anymore..
sigh sigh.. now i dun have a training buddy..
I have two choices now, stop sailing or sail alone until june..
i'm still considering the two options..
bleah.. okok

wrote the board at 4/20/2003 08:19:00 PM |

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HAPPY EASTER!!!! GET LOTSA EASTER EGGS LATER TODAY KAEEEEEEE??????????????
hahaha
I WANT MY EASTER EGG TOO!! but i'll be racing today!! lalala!!
Wish me luck!
(Luck)
heh!

wrote the board at 4/20/2003 12:08:00 AM |

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Saturday, April 19, 2003

Disclaimer: What i have stated below are purely my thoughts. You are reading this entry at your own free will. If any of the content has offended you in any way, my sincere apology to whoever is concerned.

wow! it has been almost a week since i last updated! to my loyal readers.. missed my blogging? AHhAHA! =P lalala�
Been very very very busy the past week so dun have time to update blog..
Monday - Friends came to celebrate my b-dae at the swimming pool until 1.15am
Tues - Tuition at nite
Wed - JCministry meeting until 10pm
Thurs - Maundy Thurs mass at my church and after that, a Christian Musical at Trinity Church
Friday - Good friday mass in the morning.. Tuition at 7pm

How sad can my life get man?? hahaha.. soo busy busy busy! I wish i could just stop time, sit and enjoy the scenary around me.. The only time i did this was during a JC ministry meeting.. when we were told to lie down and look at the sky.. and to start sharing.. that was the only time when i really stopped and just look at what God has given us.. yuPZ! Felt really relaxed that day.. but after that meeting.. my life converged back into the fast-paced life.. It's like those (Formula 1) F1 races.. The cars stop by at the PIT- place where they repair the cars- and soon after, they shoot off to join the other racers on the main race course.. Ahhh!! cannot take it already! *stabs himself*
Good friday mass was quite special this time. For the first time, i felt quite sad after attending a Good friday mass.. 'Coz it was so so solemn! The crucifix, croses, picture of our lady were all covered with a purple silk cloth.. Purple, because it's lent.. colour of repentence and reconciliation.. They sang no songs and for Gospel Aclaimations and other parts when the organ/piano was needed.. there wasn't any noted played from those instruments.. everything was just sang without a piano/organ. The altar was totally bare. No white cloth on the altar (something like a table cloth on a table), the candles were not lit. And when we left church, we were told to leave silently.

I find the traditional Catholic ways of 'celebrating' Good Friday very different from the Christian ways. The Christians (most of them), celebrate it with lots of joy in preparation of Easter, i guess. Also, i realise Catholics don't evangelise alot while the other denominations do alot. When i was at Trinity Church's Musical, Pastor Bea, said that she was a Catholic before she became a Christian.. and when she was a Catholic, she felt that Christians were arrogant and stuff.. Then she converted to be a christian.. she didn't explain why.. But this struck me, ' Why would Catholics abandon traditional practices for more exciting and enjoyable ways of worshipping? '
I'm not condeming Christianity 'coz they are afterall our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ under one common batism, but i'm just curious. Crystal said, most convert when they are young 'coz they find a sense of belonging to the other churches. This i do agree sometimes, i realise that there are so many inactive Catholics in church. They are what we call, Sunday Catholics- only go for mass on sundays. But is it the Church's fault that they do not feel a sense of belonding or is it their fault because they are just too slack? Question, what is the objective of going to church? Anyway, I was for a period of time, a Sunday Catholic until i found a place in JC ministry. So yah! u know lar! joni JC ministry!! haha.. Calling all J1s =P
Okok.. enough of my thoughts. haha.

Went Sailing today! yay! But 90% of the time, there was no wind kae!! Soo bored! Sailing in light wind conditions.. bleah! Went for a JC ministry meeting after that.. was 1.5 hrs late.. haha! When i reached there, they surprised me with a cake! And celebrated my birthday there! haha! We celebrated Andrew's Birthday too!! haha! Was very touched! haha.. So cool!

wrote the board at 4/19/2003 09:41:00 PM |

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Friday, April 11, 2003

WaHAhaHA... had a Junior-Meet-Senior session today.. wahhaa.. just realised that 03S54 is a partial Trip science and partial bio chem class.. scary!! haha.. they have 4-5 scholars!! wahaha! so cool kae!! ahhaha... oh yah.. they have about 8 guys.. wahhaa.. much much much more than 02s54.. hahaha.. All the Jie-Mei's in 02s54.. wahha! =P

lalala! went out to Swensens after school.. MJ, Jas, Qr, Shaomin, Rena and Liting celebrated my b-dae there! wahaha.. so cool!! ate alot alot of ice cream! heh! And SIS!! i really like the prezzie! ahahaha.. quite funny! =P It's this license to fart thing! hahaha! hahaha.. Anyway, was quite surprised and touched that MJ and Liting actually went to get a small slice of cake with a candle behind my back!! hahaha.. toilet toilet ar? =P Yah lor! Soo schweet of them! hahaha.. heh! Thanks SiS and LiTinG! heh! really appreciated it!! lalala!

Anyway, i'm planning the Gathering cum birthday bbq tomorrow.. Gathering for the Clique and for my class! hahaha.. initially, i wanted to scrap the idea.. but decided not to in the end, cozzzzzzzz, quite a few ppl decided to come! wahahah! nice siah! =P lalalal�

Oh yah! Watch the new 'Matrix' Trailer! it's a very very new trailer and it reviews alot of scenes from the new movie, Matrix Reloaded!!! wahaha

wrote the board at 4/11/2003 10:20:00 PM |

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lalalala�
hElLOzzzZZ!! EhHhH!!! Had chinese exam today!! hahah! tell u ar!! i spent 10 mins looking for the meaing of the two crucial words in the topic.. and the dictionary definition was soo cheem kae! I read the sentence, and i had two guesses.. Sense of Belonging to Singapore or Loyalty... and i chose Loyalty (StOoPiD ME!!) It's the wrong definition! it should be 'sense of belonging to singapore'! Oh Well! Anyway.. i managed to crap 1 1/4 pages.. soo i'm so dead.. like wrote less than 500 words! hahaha.. Chinese!!! I loveeeee ittt!!! F9!! WoOhoO!

Went out with Jieyong and shaomin after that!! had my dinner at Meridien's new thai foodcourt! hahaha! okok.. Anyway, after dinner, i went to the Church of the Immaculate Heart of Mary for the General Absolution.. yeah.. this 'mass confession' thing.. coz of sars.. there's why there's no 1-1 confession! It's quite compulsory for Catholics to go for confession before Good Friday.. forgot the reason why liaoz.. hahaha.. Anyway, i feeeeeeeeel good! Cozzzz i've just gone for my 'confession'..
lalala!! i feel lighter! as in.. my heart's lighter coz i've been carrying alot of 'baggage'.. yupz!! heh! =PP

wrote the board at 4/11/2003 12:20:00 AM |

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Wednesday, April 09, 2003

Had my chem exam today.. shit man.. had a mental block.. wanna know why? I tried sleeping at 12am.. but i tossed and turned until 4.30.. and i slept for only two hours.. went to school, hoping that the exam would start at 8am.. but it started at 10 instead.. coz we had civics and principal's talk.. then i blacked out at 1030
AhhHHHH!
Okay, anyway.. my morale was low.. so went out with Jaime, Glenn, Jeremy and Addy today.. Went to far east to eat and Jaime treated me!! haha! =P After that we watched 'The Recruit'. It's very very goooooooood! The plot is very very good! If you are looking for a movie with a good plot, watch ' The Recruit'. Dun read the reviews, don't watch the trailers. Just watch the movie! It keeps you in suspense!! very very good show!!! I'd give it a 8/10 rating!!

HahAHHAa.. okok.. now for some movie trailers! Watch the 'Bruce Almighty' trailer! it's veryvery funny! Jim Carrey is my long time idol!! haha!! Go watch!! very very funny!! Especially when he says ' I've got the power.. '.. And the splitting of the ' Red sea', in the case, the cars in the street! hahaha!! =PPP

Oh yah.. i have chinese tomorrow.. trying to study but dunno what to study.. very tired now.. will probably study tml morning! heh!
And i left my specs in school!!! =(((((((((((((

wrote the board at 4/09/2003 10:58:00 PM |

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Tuesday, April 08, 2003

Oh yah.. I can officially go buy drinks today! no fear of getting rejected by the 7-11 ppl.. =)
Soooo, what new privileges do i have? hahaha
1) Drink
2) ~~Smoke~~
3) HmmM.. Drive?
4) ~~Drink and drive?~~
5) Go out and come home late at nite! Oh YEAh! Partial freedom!!!
6) Sign up for stuff without parental consent

lalalalalala!!!

wrote the board at 4/08/2003 01:52:00 PM |

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GoSh.. i need to get out of the house.. but i've got chem to study.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. No-Lifer. Oh yeah.
Should i go for the jcministry meeting tml? hmm... got cheena paper on thursssssss.. AHhHHhhhhH... SHould i just go and ignore chinese since i'm going to fail (WoOHoO!) anyway? It's gonna be used for Block Test Two.. the results.. HmMMmmm.. hahahaha
i'm caught in a dilemma..

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wow! i'm already 18! hahaha.. lemme make my speech.. i want to take my mother, my father, my brother, my friends........................... Hahaha.. no larrrr... too long man! hahahah =P haha.. 18 yrs of my life.. i've been blessed with soo many good things! yupz! heh! And time really flies, i could still remember the fresh memories of myself celebrating my 17th birthday with the clique in west coast.. soo fast! soo many things happened in just a year.. such invaluable life experiences.. =))
hahhaha.. Made many new and good friends, lost some... 1 yr... It's officially and exactly 1 year since i attended school after my appeal got through.. 1 year since i got together with some girl and got dumped 3 days later.. haha.. 1 yr(around there lar.. haha) since i made a new sister (mj)... hahaa.. too many things to list! But, thanks for everything.. thanks for making this 1 yr a blissful one!

God:Thanks for everything man! Thanks for Listening to my prayers! And answering my prayers! Special thanks to St Jude and St Anthony and, Mary our mother!
Parents: Thanks for taking care of me and enduring all my nonsense for 18 yrs! hahahaha =P
Brother: haha.. 1 yr of stupid questions from me.. thanks for teaching me maths!
Sisters [JiE(yiling) and mEi(MeiJin)]: EhHhH.. ThankS For that listening ear! and the support! Both of u are something that i can't live without..
Jasreel: PiLlOW!!!! hahaha.. ehhhhh... Really enjoyed your companionship and our sms chat!! heh! Your joy is influencial, thanks man!
Kala: WaHAhahA.. you ar!! 2nd person to wish me!! hahaha.. but thanks for all the laughter for the past yr!!
Jasmine: Heyyyy!! jaSmiNE!!!!!!!!!!! Didn't really know you last yr.. but got to know you better this yr and reallyyyyy enjoyed our time together this past few months
Julia: hey juice! ahaha!! Clementi Khaki!! The past year, your friendship and being my busmate home.. appreciate it!
JieYong: Ehh brudder! Thanks for coming to me when i'm down.. although the friendship was just normal last yr.. but i'm sure it is building up this yr!
Shaomin: ehhhh!!! really really really appreciate your guidance in chemistry and your friendship!
Allan and Jaime: Thanks for being my pals and for the companionship for the past year!
Liting: Hey Clementi Khaki! i really enjoyed your company last yr! and although we had differeces this yr, i hope it will be put aside for a better future! heh!
Cynthia: HEy HEy HEy NuRen!!!! A listening ear whenever i'm down or whenever i feel like bitching! hahahaaaa.. thanks for that ear! I hope that ear is still alright! =P AnD!! I really enjoyed your company while sailing!! mish mish sailing with u!!
Chim and FHM: Ehhhh Brudders! Gym and risk rocks! hahahahaha! Chim, thanks for stretching a hand out without fail whenever i'm stuck or fallng (haha sometimes, literally).. FhM! Mr ChANg! hahaha.. a new man after re-accepting christ last yr eh? Among the BV ppl, i thoroughly enjoyed the time spent with you! and chim too! hahaha
The rest: thanks for everything this 1 yr!

Oh yah!! most importantly! thanks for enduring my nonsense!!!! hahaha!!!! =PP

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Monday, April 07, 2003

It was like a dream.. A nightmare.. my thoughts were screwed.. hahaa.. i know what i wrote in the previous entry may not make sense.. but yah.. i wrote it in a bad state of mind.. I was really torn apart lar.. it has been happening for 4 months liaoz.. cannot take it anymore.. heh.. anyway, i'm okay already.. i just needed to let out some hot steam.. but i just keep asking myself, what would have happened if i had utilised my anger as a fuel for strength? I really really pray for my temper to continue be restrained. YuPZ.. AnyWay, it's over lar.. haha.. i'm okay already..
Thanks MJ and Jasreel ( hey hey, sorry for messaging you late at nite.. may have woken u up.. apologies! ).

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There are people out there who want hurt me just to take sweet revenge, and from my pain and agony, their enjoyment. A past mistake i made, i was never forgiven. Months past, psychological warfare i fought. Among my friends, i was pushed aside. Rejected and alone. You did this to me, i suppressed my anger. Again, you did it to me, i suppressed my anger. Like a rose, trampled on the ground. Torn and damaged beyond redemption. Nobody lifted a finger to help me out of this grave dug for me. Everyone just avoided me, because they sided the other story. Friends i have, but they did nothing to help me. Sometimes, it just hits me, are those people true or do they just like what i always do to make them happy? And anything more than that, they dare not touch me? DAMN THOSE PEOPLE. DAMN YOU. DAMN YOU HYPOCRITES.

Others badmouthed you, i defended you. Well, thank you very much.
You've won. I've used the last of my energy. Finish me off. If it is able to bring you eternal joy, then finish me off.

Above all

Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature
And all created things
Above all wisdom
And all the ways of man
You were here
Before the world began

------Verse 2------
Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders
The world has ever known
Above all wealth
And treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure
What You're worth

------CHORUS-------
Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like the rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

(Verse 1)
(Verse 2)
(Chorus)
(Chorus)

Like the rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

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Superman (It's Not Easy)

I can�t stand to fly
I�m not that naive
I�m just out to find
The better part of me

I�m more than a bird�I�m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It�s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I�ll never see

It may sound absurd�but don�t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed�but won�t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It�s not easy to be me

Up, up and away�away from me
It�s all right�You can all sleep sound tonight
I�m not crazy�or anything�

I can�t stand to fly
I�m not that naive
Men weren�t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I�m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It�s not easy to be me.

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it's not easy being me, trampled on the ground.
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Sunday, April 06, 2003

http://www.thewb.com/Faces/CastBio/0,7930,75,00.html

(hot)^infinity
=P
HAhaHA

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Oh yah.. best viewed in 1024 x 768

wrote the board at 4/06/2003 01:41:00 AM |

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Saturday, April 05, 2003

hEy HEy HEy ppl!! i've just revamped the whole webby!! haha.. looks nicer now right? I've also taken out the Tagboard and in it's place, BlogOut's Comment System.. If you wanna comment, just click on the link at the end of every blog and a new window will open.. Comment in there kae???
HeHHhH!! Oh yah!! try left-clicking anywhere in the page and see what happens!

wrote the board at 4/05/2003 05:18:00 PM |

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Friday, April 04, 2003

Sailing
by N*sync

Well it's not far down to paradise
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find tranquility
Oh, the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me, oh

It's not far to Never Never Land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
Oh, the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me, oh

Sailing (takes me away)
Takes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
(I heard it could be)
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
(Soon I will be free)
Soon I will be free, yeah

Fantasy, it gets the best of me
When I'm sailing, sailing
All the world in a reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me, oh

Sailing (takes me away)
(Takes me away)
Takes me away to where I want to be
(To where I've always heard it could be)
(I heard it could be)
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
(Soon I will be free)
Soon I will be free

Well it's not far back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
Oh, the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me, oh

Sailing (takes me away)
Takes me away
(To where I've always heard it could be)
I heard it could be
(Heard it could be)
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
(Soon I will be free)
Soon I will be free, free

(Sailing takes me away)
(To where I've always heard it could be)
I heard it could be
(I heard it could be)
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
(Soon I will be free)
Soon I will be free, yeah

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OMG!! this song is niceeeeeeeeeeeee!!! not because it's about sailing.. it's just niceeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahahhaa!!! didn't know about this song until cynthia told me!! haha.. thanks cyn! =P

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Bring Me To Life
by Evanescence
From the album "Daredevil Soundtrack"

How can you see into my eyes
like open doors.
Leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb.
Without a soul
my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home.

(Wake me up.
Wake me up inside.
I can't wake up.
Wake me up inside.
Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Wake me up.
Bid my blood to run.
I can't wake up.
Before I come undone.
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.)

Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.

[Chorus]

Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.

All of this sight
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me

I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.

Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul

Don't let me die here
There must be something wrong.
Bring me to life.

[Chorus]

Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside.

Bring me to life

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QuiTe A nicE sONG! u ppl have got to download this song! good music! solidddddddd aR!
=P

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Wednesday, April 02, 2003

BoREd.

Bored adjective
feeling tired and unhappy because something is not interesting or because you have nothing to do

wrote the board at 4/02/2003 10:56:00 PM |

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